I felt depressed recently and just want to cry right now besause of some reasons.
The first reason happened last night. I heard about my parents talking about my grandma’s condition that might cause her into a coma. My grandma has been in NTU Hospital since last year. My uncles are so nervous that they don’t know what to do. I feel very sad because I cannot keep my grandma company in the hospital. ”You just do your work in school and haven’t to worry about your grandma.” My dad said. I still want to go to the hospital for taking care of my grandma. However, I should study for the tests. I am really in a dilemma.
The second reason is some conflicts in my family. Every night I went home, I felt tired and didn’t want to talk to my parents. My parents were also tired because they had to take care for my grandma once a week. (Taking care of a patient would make someone sleeplessness all the night. ) Therefore, when we talk with each others, we also had some argument. It really makes me feel that I don’t want to go home right away after school. However, knowing that this year is my last year to under my parents’ protection. After I enter college, I won’t be such long time to stay in home if I go to the college which isn’t in Taipei.
Feeling lonely and helpless every night when I was sleeping. It might be the same problem which my parents face.